The way of the world

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The closer we get to travelling the world, the more I feel a part of it. It’s an unexpected evolution. As the self-appointed Queen of Dreamers, feeling grounded and present in the moment is not usually my strong suit, yet here I am, feeling fully engaged in the space I am living in, right now.

It’s weird.

The passing of time seems to have altered, and I can’t change it back. No longer do I find myself wishing my life away, eager to begin anew. Now time is precious, and the people I choose to share it with are even more so.

Because that is all that stands between me and the future this whole blog has been built around. Time. 15 weeks of time to be exact. And it is this time that I now hold of the highest value.

I’ve been dreaming and planning of my new life for nineteen long months. Now I suddenly feel awakened to the life I am already living. I can see its beauty clearly, and am grateful for it every day.

It’s as though the tides have turned, and slowly the waters of my future are creeping in, gently lapping at my feet, rising ever deeper with each passing day.

So I’ve decided to make a splash.

What you do today is important, because you are exchanging a day of your life for it.
– Unknown

Little things are making me happy. I’m teaching Lee to drive (I swore I wouldn’t travel with him until he could legally get behind the wheel. He’s 37. It’s time.). I’m getting used to life in the passenger seat, and realising that I don’t always have to be planning and controlling. I can just sit back and enjoy the ride.

Enjoying the ride, and the view

Even my air freshener is happy

I’m letting go. There’s more laughter, more joy, more wine. There is more peace.

The more I think about this precious window of time, the more I want to do with it. My mum and I have been talking about taking a trip together, eager to create memories to carry us through the long months of separation ahead. This year will be forever remembered, and the 2012 holidays we share will become the stories we carry with us, to be retrieved during moments of homesickness, or shared over future dinners and family gatherings, before being safely tucked away again until the next time they are needed.

I want to share everything I love about travel with my mum – the sights, the sounds, the colours, the people, the food and the beauty of a newly discovered destination. But I know now that I don’t have to leave home to do that. I can do it right here, over a glass of Merlot, a lazy afternoon in the garden or a surprisingly delicious bowl of courgette (that’s zucchini to you American folks) spaghetti.

Because the present is exactly that – a present, a gift. And it is just as important for those I share it with as it is for me. Just as I will look back on these times, so too will they. I want this present to truly be a gift we all hold dear for the rest of our lives.

Because time is fleeting. That’s the way of the world.

It’s up to us to get out of our own way and allow ourselves to see the world and our place in it. Because, as I am learning, it’s one hell of a killer view.

You have to go wholeheartedly into anything in order to achieve anything worth having.
– Frank Lloyd Wright

So here I go, wholeheartedly living now, and enjoying each day as it comes.

Because it’s totally worth having.

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Rhonda June 11, 2012 at 20:35

Beautiful post Hannah! We try every day to realize that each day we are alive is, in fact, a gift and shouldn’t be wasted. Live each moment as if it were your last because you never know the day that will be the truth.

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Hannah June 12, 2012 at 21:10

Thank you Rhonda, and great advice 🙂

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Carmel June 11, 2012 at 20:53

I love how the themes you write about are familiar and have been covered by other bloggers I follow, yet they seem so new told through your words. Your experiences are definitely ones I can relate to, but it’s refreshing to hear about them from your unique perspective. This is why I end up following so many blogs! Lots of different experiences and voices telling a common human tale. I’m happy for you that you’ve found some good balance between preparing yourself (mentally and otherwise) for leaving and enjoying what you have now. It’s certainly a lifelong lesson we have to learn. Lovely, as always.

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Hannah June 12, 2012 at 21:10

Wow, what a wonderful compliment, thank you so much Carmel!

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EM | Cubicle Throwdown June 11, 2012 at 21:32

Your writing is lovely Hannah, and this post hit close to home for me! I am leaving for an indefinite trip in 8 weeks (which is 6 weeks earlier than I planned) so I understand the feeling of trying to spend the time as best you can. I am also working 80 hours a week up until I go (I think you can commiserate on that one as well) so I feel a lot of pressure when people want to see me before I go – my little amounts of free time seem to be filling with scheduling movers, doctor appointments, etc. and I need to get a little more balance between the two. Thanks for the reminder 🙂

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Hannah June 12, 2012 at 21:14

How exciting Em! And I totally sympathise with the 80 hour work week, though I have dropped mine down to 60 hours a week now. I definitely couldn’t keep up that pace right till my departure date, so I hope you are able to slow things down a bit too, and make sure you have plenty of time to prepare and spend time with loved ones. I wish you all the luck in the world, and can’t wait to read about your new life in Roatan 🙂

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Savvy scot June 12, 2012 at 04:19

Hannah, your writing is getting better and better as you approach your journey. I think the life inside you has truly become unleashed. I’m hoping you can make a living from blogging to fund your indefinite travels 🙂

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Hannah June 12, 2012 at 21:17

Thank you so much for your wonderful comment, that truly means the world to me. I certainly feel different, like a huge shift has taken place. I hope I can make a living from blogging too, that would just be the icing on the cake 🙂

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Sarah Somewhere June 12, 2012 at 10:34

So inspirational Hannah!!! Such beautiful, thoughtful words (you certainly have a way with them!). Firstly, I gave Tyrhone his frst driving lesson in London 4 years ago! Go Lee! I love so much of what you write here, and can relate to the world opening up in response to following your dreams. It seems ironic that you make a HUGE life choice to leave, and then things come alive. I certainly experienced that as a result of leaving my job and setting off for the unknown, and think it is something to do with being able to see clearly when you are on the right path.
Also love the part about ‘getting out of the way’, definitely something I need to remember to do!!!

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Hannah June 12, 2012 at 21:21

Thanks Sarah! I love the parallels in our journey – that’s so funny that you taught Tyrhone to drive too! We’ll certainly be showing them a thing or two about driving next year 😉

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Candace Rose Rardon June 12, 2012 at 15:43

Thanks for such a beautiful post, Hannah. Staying present in the moment is something I’ve been working on for a while – whether I’m at home or on the road, I never want to wish away the day we’ve been given. I’m sure your time away is going to be that much richer because you’ve made the most of this time you have now. I loved all the quotes you included too – thanks for sharing them!

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Hannah June 12, 2012 at 21:24

Hi Candance, thank you so much for you kind words 🙂 I definitely think that enjoying the moment is a skill to master – and I know I am going to miss my life here in so many ways. I want to create as many special memories as possible, to help keep me going when I’m out on the road. Glad you liked the quotes – I’m a bit of an addict and can’t stop myself putting them in my posts!

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Caroline June 12, 2012 at 21:44

I love this post Hannah and I remember feeling so similar when I was on my final countdown. You’ve articulated your feelings so beautifully, as always 🙂

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Hannah June 13, 2012 at 16:55

Thank you Caroline, I really appreciate that 🙂

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Kim June 13, 2012 at 19:54

Enjoy every second with the people you love. We’re leaving family (and dogs) TOMORROW and am here to tell you that time flies.

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Hannah June 15, 2012 at 00:05

I simultaneously both dread and long for that moment. I hope it wasn’t too awful saying goodbye to Bear! Much love xxx

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Steph | DiscoveringIce June 19, 2012 at 02:26

Beautifully written, you always express yourself so eloquently Hannah!
And I can so relate to this! I used to always wish my life away, “I cant wait until …” or “Once I have…”. Its a very unwise thing to do, now that I look back on it because you cant enjoy life if you always think “it hasn’t started properly yet”. So these days I try to remind myself regularly of how grateful I am for EVERYTHING.

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Hannah June 19, 2012 at 19:01

Thank you Steph, I really appreciate that. Gratitude is a very powerful thing – I really think it helps make sense of life, and give perspective. The most precious thing anyone should dream of is to be completely happy in the moment they are in right NOW!

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